~World of Whatever~

2012-01-14T09:38:00.000+08:00

i tend to reafirm myself but lookin at the old post,
but yet my mouth is the cruelest but not my heart,
haha silly old brat, just always noe tat being away is a good thing
u can say a thousand lie to everyone, but not a lie to yrself
but i still lying for not loving u..

2011-11-17T20:10:00.001+08:00

after reaching the peak of emoness

in conclusion im weell never better,

let go let go tat silly old chunk,

for say shall never acknowledge anythin bout me,

let go let go tat silly old hope,

for say tat hope together will never be true,

let go let go tat silly old pal,

for say u prioritize others den me,

let go let go tat silly promises,

for say u never uphold those promise,

let go let go tat silly act,

for say u never appreciate anything i help,

let go let go o let go,

u have accompany, i have mine:)

a small world of yours,

u wan u remain there,

i...have done reminiscent for you n your doing,

like once a person,

a pal move on, its a sign more pals are heading your way,

if it meant to lose to you,

i just have to accept it :)

life sucks to matter how, just prevent it from being suckier, that all

just have to say out before starting new,
i love you

2011-11-16T00:24:00.000+08:00

after living 20 years of life, i never felt as devastated as now,
its not schul, its not exam, its just me,
im a failure in emotions, im a failure in handling stuff,
im yes a failure in being me,
certain times i do really feel like suicide-off
end this fucking life of mine n well die
im tat britttle, im fucking brittle, enough of makin smiley faces, enough of thinking for people
everythin is fake!, this is not my heart desire, its totally not me
im fucking wanna die!!!!
almost reaching the thershold,yea a lil more provocation.n yes im fucking off this world..
no1 will understand how fucking ache is tat heart, how fucking disturbin it is!!
any1 willing to kill me?do plz, i beg u

2011-11-12T19:13:00.000+08:00

i feel like leavin kl
i do really wanna leave here
i fucking hate here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can i just die off? damn this place

2011-11-09T00:03:00.000+08:00

this is just stupid
its like playin cat catching mouse
1 set ur talking normally, another set u just act i never exist!!!
is tat the so call hey we shud talk, n the next thing shoot i shudnt get any closer..
if ur still feelin awkward, just get back to yr own self again n solve it( just like wat u always do)
yea u will never reveal anything inside, u just wanna believe everythin yrself n solve it
in the end I myself have to face 2 different kind of personality,
do u think im happy staying this way?
as a friend first thing i wanna noe a real human, not a robotic figure tat smiles all the time hiding stuff behind their back..
oh i damn freakin speechless bout this,
is this how u wan it to be? always hiding the true u ?
if tats the case i rather move on den thinkin hundreds of ways to be a friend..
its killin me inside writtin this, yet its even hurtful facing tat person have change totally..
i feel like stabbing myself, do u feel tat way?...

2011-11-04T00:55:00.000+08:00

this is just fucking retard..
i shouldnt..i reali damn shudnt click tat fucking site
damn y my finger so itchy.
but hey now i got it,
now i fucking understand it!
fine!!!! fuck it den!

2011-11-02T23:42:00.000+08:00

havin frequent stomach pain lately,
the problem comes..everytime it hurt, it will project the things we had came across,
call it a halt, im already adapted now,
but i cant make it go, it appears the time when i was sick n u were sick,
tat moment..darn my stomach is missing sumthing?
or tummy, u cant adapt wats going on now?
i dono..but i noe ur killing me!!
ahh life..how i wish things were simple, watever u wan just get it
no rules, no worries, no doubts...

2011-10-31T23:47:00.000+08:00

my tummy is killin me again..
whether is the stress of you, or the stress of exam,
i shall hang on to it,
ill never lose!!!
even i have lost the most memorable person,
ill shall come back even better,
it really like sem 2 now,
what i fear seems to be happening now,
i mention tat be4 in front of you,
i guess its the unavoidable stage...
the coldness is always there, maybe it never fade
i just welcome it, cause it is just gonna be there.

2011-10-28T01:56:00.000+08:00

i want to try self inflicting pain,
does it reali distract yr mind?
yes i do esp this insomia is killin me.
i physically exhausted..serious i just wanna sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-10-25T23:03:00.001+08:00

transfer all the negative energy into semangat is the best thing!
the book teaches forgettin, but i prefer to hold it n push me to the next level of life
well everyone do need an extra push? well sorrow is my pillar to success :)
its hard to control but ill do my best!!

overall 2 weeks shall portrait as 5/5 smiles
but today let say 3/5 it was a tiny bitsy mistake i made to lost control myself,
yes seeing sumthing that shouldnt be seen,
yea what a catch..
well hunted by several nights of nightmares is a gud thing,
i shall get immune to it very soon enough.

at least now..shape up, ignoring what should be ignore, n excel my results(yup u gonna be my target to reach)
well setting the score up high is quite a good thing

no matter if ur reading or get to read this, as far as i noe,

since the beginning u wanted wat we are going on now,

no doubt im damn glad that once i had the chance to take a deeper step into yr world,

but a better idol has taken its place whether just being close or even better the so best pal you have,

i shall step aside being a normal friend

no matter what circumstances for example in a simple way of invitation -meals, u shall be occupied, u shall consider everything upon utmost of everything, making me the priority of rejections. hah, i totally understand.

if life is so hard to decide, i rather choose my heart not my brain,

ignore the sciences

brain has no feeling, feeling imply from your heart,

the pain is not head-ache, is heart-ache,

原则 is dead, you set up the rules and u have the ability to alter as well

but if the so call 'right way' is your choice even i had imply everything

fine u win im done implying :)

hah, asking tat sami valu to imply is just failure - 要好好做自己
ask you elaborate you dono
wan me sendiri to message.
but thank you la my innocent housemate :p
continue being an angel la

yes im done!!!wahahha

2011-10-11T17:17:00.000+08:00

entrust a smile for every day u manage to overcome the sorrow

well, 3/4 for today cause i manage to survive until the last class.

but yikes no mp3 it seems breakdown to me

haha, yup ur doing great u-wen :)

yes, both sides are suffering.

2011-10-09T22:46:00.000+08:00

on one sec u feel like stabbing yrself,
on other thought u just wanna live,
ther verdict is planing yr next move
live or die,

2011-10-09T05:54:00.000+08:00

if u mention bout move on,
yes its easy to say, but its fucking hard to do!!!!
if u wan to stop crying,
its reali impossible
my heart is so pain till it numbs
it feels so dead,
every shatter tears bring me closer to breakdown,
i just wanna leave, i dowan to feel,
everythin is just fucking stupid
can i be free?

2011-09-26T18:26:00.003+08:00

if its hours ago, i would be fucking emo and enrage of myself,
but sliding a few tears away and slapping myself awake
yea its different now.
come on, this is just a repetition of the past
i been through, i suffer through
this time just so mild, yea i will pass through!!!
fuck my life -.- stop being an idiotic n wake up uwen
yea u do really ned some cursing to wake up tat mind
life its just bout being emo, theres more to tat,
just ignore everythin n continue!!!!
im such a fucker!

2011-09-15T17:54:00.001+08:00

后悔是无用的，因为现实是无法改变的

失去珍惜的机会，是蠢人做的事吧。。

2011-09-15T05:47:00.001+08:00

有时候，关闭自己的情绪也仍然是个好点。。

虽然变得无情无意，但至少不会为感情而累

2011-09-13T18:30:00.001+08:00

妒忌
为何妒忌心如此的重，
眼前的事都如此一般，

但于我，
打翻五味瓶的滋味很难受，

付出的那么多，

但，

总是被阻碍，

即使成功了，

但打动不了任何人

累，
是在于无法忍受现实中的reality
很累
总是一个人度过这几个月，

well the tired part is thinking ways of getting back to you,
but i guess sumeone has occupied that space already

i guess i should let it be aside.
Yup, 随缘吧

2011-09-13T00:45:00.000+08:00

listen n understand.

2011-09-08T05:22:00.001+08:00

trust me, its never easy to feel fed-up,
fed-up of not showing certainty
fed-up of talking negative craps
fed-up of seeing sticking off with sumbody,
fed-up of waiting any initiations,
tats y i wanna get my ass off
tats y i fed-up of shit standing
cause its never appreciation ever,
the teerw simple werd, have you even hve the courage to imply?

basically u only noe how to act dumb!
life-off, pal

2011-09-08T04:59:00.002+08:00

四点了，
shit nightmare.
i can't recall the starting,
but it was a car race
everything was so fast n i was the passenger
its like very blunt end turning we will end up tumbling off,
yes finally it did n have a bled in my tummy,
stuff coming out n theres a dog licking beside??
n the setting just change to a prestigious hotel n i fainted.
worst up, i woke up in a pregnancy ward with injections mutliple times,
its all anesthesia an the jab do feel real!
yes within minutes i woke up n my mum wearing sum tear-off cloths visiting
i suspected its something proclaim bankruptcy due to medications fees(damn).
that gush of sadness rush up
and here i am..四点钟

wao the other sid eof libra

2011-08-11T11:26:00.005+08:00

天秤是如果天秤讓你傷心了，其實他/她比你更傷心，如果你恨天秤，其實他/她比你更恨自己。天秤們的憂郁埋在心里，眼淚留在夜里。他們選擇承擔，而不是傾訴

i admire this phrase, as all along i can never imply this phrase through words.

well theres more lol..

extracted from here

http://diary.wenxuecity.com/diary.php?id=0&yearID=2009&monthID=7&dayID=30&currdate=200907&pid=39043&page=1&&c_lang=big5

2011-08-02T08:07:00.000+08:00

it was never a dreamy nite till yesterday,
i endeavor hinder things right but no way,
it's about a ~~dream~~ nitemare about losing sumone,
and settings of places, around kl,
comes alley, car, and the black/white areas,

first scene,
i feel sad, strugglation, and determination to be beside,
we were driven to places, with other mates as well,
yet the feelings of alienation and weirdness towards you came by,
less talking but hearing more,
it was a long journey.

second scene,
a car within
it came to a part where the pain started, the sadness and sorrow rushing through my veins,
it was blurry the at much time, the quarreling was a torment.
between you and me,
the speech is blur
and my heart keeps telling me,
not lurching out the forbidden phrase,
as it may get worst.
resentfulness the journey continue

faded away, and i am back to reality again,
sigh...not again..
throughout my past event, it may proven -
dream is a tool of predictions,
yes it happens before,
before i losing you.

stupidfy!

2011-07-18T16:45:00.000+08:00

childish, immature, and childish!!!
until now u still wanna snatch things from me
do u respect the user?

a sense of agony in tummy just lush up
thanks to you..
sigh...i dono wat to say..
hump..

ur making me nuts!

2011-06-16T17:01:00.000+08:00

im having mix-up feelings.
maybe is just a libra thing.
lookin at both side, yes i can see the carinity, the thought,
but everytime it reaches its peak,
boom! u slam everything into ashes,
is there a yes answer?
or just always a merry-go-round.
sigh, as always..im always say out the contrast of thoughts.'
im really asian, true asian but not the applicable 1 in codes of ethics,
but the application is on me.
i always give people want they want, instead of me.

worst bus ride

2011-05-18T01:30:00.000+08:00

the bus is worst
he is worst
she is worst
I am worst

I hate bus
I hate fights
I hate uncertainty
I hate me

I want me
I want no more
I want friend
just friend.

i fed-up.

2011-04-01T22:06:00.000+08:00

a movie set up a trail
n it hurts, grieve
especially killing your love ones,
that harsh

2011-04-01T02:30:00.000+08:00

admire n love
wat do u most see
wat do u most feel
but wat do u most want?

admire n love
sometimes odds against u
sometimes its luck against u
fate, anxiety, truce
so who u r?

y do u wanna love?
who do u wanna care?
what do u wanna get?
n whom u wanna be with?
but who are you?

n sacrifice? im.. : )

2011-04-01T02:16:00.000+08:00

ha call it a bliss
i understand y my sickness came
it crates another bliss,
which hidden from me
if it wasnt
im still long piak
but my passion will continue
cause it changes everything
it changes me
to proceed a better me
a newer me
the irresistible me

2011-03-31T00:58:00.000+08:00

oh darn, its not emo..goddamit

hmm...feel like giving up
1st the sickness n now communication

im lost in words T.T
n slimmin down another problem - aikz

but my academics is never going to be a lost
pacing up the same speed or better.
gambatte! >.<

2011-03-29T14:02:00.002+08:00

watchin too much love story makes me so valnurable
emotional.

2011-03-27T01:54:00.000+08:00

dated march 27th
im craftin somethin out
cause i cant sleep

alone in the living hall
staring...
tummy hving an uneasy feeling
which is killin me from bed!!

ahh lets try msn den..lame only 3
the song - 圆舞曲
turns up alil..
sing along
starin mousehunt 1min left..

2011-03-26T23:51:00.000+08:00

study freak!!!
i dono wat to talk again!!!
i shud study more
yet again damn my skin itch like shit! need some cooler its killin me><

2011-03-25T23:34:00.001+08:00

i check my face on the book everytime,
but theres no sight of u,
i dono, felt silly n i bet opportunityis nil
since i cant join any event at all
due to this so call sickness
maybe its is a sign, tellin me both sides
fate or patience...
i just sigh..but uu just hve to accept :)

2011-03-21T16:59:00.002+08:00

its a miracle if u come n visit me.
tats my wish ><
n having fever is no matter to me

2011-03-20T18:30:00.002+08:00

being with the group
i learn alot
from head to toe
n inside out
i found out
my time not now
cause inside out
im still a child

ever since now
im shappin up
will go on
until i goWOW
spare the junkies
n the bisc
cause 2 years now
ill shape myself

stare is glare
i see all stars
but im on earth
how to tell?
yes or no
i dono~
cause reverse physology
is always there

come to think
i've been all wrong
from wat i see
till thoughts are gone
ppl tend more complex
everytime...
so i guess..
theres more to learn!~

2011-03-16T06:54:00.000+08:00

a new pair of sneakers,
its a start for....JOGGING
determination man,
whether its a worth or not,
its still beneficial.

chillax at 4 in the morning,
i reali envy ppl who can sleep..
i miss last week.
Yea u got me.

2011-03-15T02:11:00.000+08:00

well..its still the same thing, silent!
cant u just speak out..ughh..give up already (just my brain)
n in fact i did sumthin awful today
going dota after 10pm...tats reali the most stupidiest thing i done this month,
came home rotten n heavy eyes,
but classes start at 9,
so...
i break my own rules( yea by ME)

for once again im not hasty,
aint not but wth u didnt reply my message!!!!
ugh the principle of sms-in ~ reply la
at least sayin a yes-no.
phone? aaa..lazy

so forth, prof rand turn out to be different,
its not bothersome but he turns out to be a lil unfriendly,
suppose to be 'hey, theres rainbow in the sky, can u feel it?'
but this is wat u get 'u guys still terrible, smack him'
maybe the negative aura is changing yr personality,
understandable but hope it wont last long
cause it will turn bothersome.

progressing my world with every knowledge i 'stole'
turning n applyin to the fullest i had ever known.
from the jigsaw that never said.

2011-03-14T07:00:00.000+08:00

swap tat!
its controllable
ill goyang within the air

2011-03-12T06:01:00.000+08:00

its so hard to connect with u,
or simply startin a simple conversation.
ahh crap..i dono how to communicate,
pttff, dang...

2011-03-10T02:36:00.000+08:00

just wanna imprint some stuff here,
yes, it was magnificent,
it was always perfect, still concern with some stuff yet(innerly)
but overall i dono!
but it reali happy to know theres u
im swaying all round now,
not desperate, nor any felt into some lovish stuff,
im impress by u :)

~~joepathy hah how silly...~~

imprint. 2.36am wed-

2011-03-03T08:58:00.000+08:00

hahahaha(sacrastically)
a pat on the back,
there is 1 thing i ned to do,
changing my image!!

2011-02-28T23:58:00.001+08:00

my heart is vunerable,
every sad stuff just trumple my soul,
just a movie, a song. or a grieve from friends,
i lean it,
i felt it,
it becomes part of me,
whether i wan it..or not.

im happy, yet im sad
im..makin myself nuts...
its tragic - mathyr

i wan a dog, preferable husky,
a pet tat always love you, like you if..u treat em well,
no insight trouble, no dishonesty, no doubt, no rejection
a partner although a short life, but a happy shortful years aint tat sufficient?

2011-02-17T06:30:00.000+08:00

make some sense in me
does it worth the while?
yes im naive, real naive for short,
letting down my guard,
ill just say,
its just nonthing..i mean NONTHING
yup.

singapore oh singapore, hey?

2011-02-15T23:54:00.000+08:00

dont expect more
dont expect less
just stop expecting..

neeeh.

2011-02-15T00:55:00.001+08:00

it just suck, it reali suck badly,
guess wat, i had enough,
no guts to admit or even start? fine.. ill just leave aside,
no more surprises cause its pointless.
brain control my heart now, i swear on this very valentine.
heey johor!

well in fact, the surprise is simple. Its swimming. i learn it for - not a big deal anymore. right brain?

2011-02-02T23:46:00.000+08:00

After watching this movie,(not the ending yet)..

Generally the conclusion i got,

当初的选择是对的.:P

everyone likes to 演, even the movie's movie self,

if theres no 退路,
we just can 向前走,
cruel remains cruel, 误解 or remain belief just go on,
cause,
we only choose whats right for everyone (us), right?

~ summary from the tragic movie~ .......

2011-02-01T01:32:00.001+08:00

just had a great chat with mr.seumas..
was advised to let it go simple right?
hard to rule out but, by all means simple..
never easy to be simple but its easy to say simple..
i guess just think simple as well...
but reali i miss u..

2011-01-29T23:01:00.000+08:00

the truth bout frustration n like on u reali held me up,
one second u r good, n the next craps of negative thoughts,
im lingering between it which makes me annoyed/like you,
it's a gratitude u were there last year, n a fortune this year,
im confuse, n darn..darn...indeed,

once again its 2010 stuff again, gosh i thought one solve but another appear,
indeed im 'feeling' too much, n aint 'thinking' too much,
i guess i dont understand u better, but curiosity wans me too,
maybe i wanted too..

jeopardy..y cant it be simple!!!!
stay low...stay low..

gambate everyone!!!!

2011-01-14T20:28:00.001+08:00

after being bugged for such a decade, hey its 2011
after being concern n bein on somebody' shoes, hey its my life,
u arnt the matter of fear, just a subject that coexist here, right here a normal being,
u arnt the matter of doubt, cause it was over n never in any part of my thoughts since new year,
if u rnt unforgivable, ok~
if the matter still coexist n never be gone, ok~
if ur searchin for redemption, ok~
tolerance is never forever, n forever is never exist in anyone,
never noe i will vanish without a trace, or even just a split second i aint here,
i treasure my life rather than makin thoughts of recovery,
a leo makes the deal to himself, watever reason the deal will never perish within them,

off the horoscopes, the character proven everything, every inch of it,
i hereby declare im not afraid nor guilty anymore,
i did watever i could n its just futile,
all the past purpose is for our very close angel
the 'time' i given out, the space, the tolerance..
(yes it sounds obnoxious, but i mean it)
3 happy friends? haha grudge was never on the list before
nevertheless my dear angel,
plz treat this as a poem,
n no feelin upon it,
cause theres no intention at all,
but is wat i learn - from 2010

happiness is my motto, n sad still loses to happy(by letter)
y wanna always be last n not the very 1st few letters?
being simple is easy, is just whether u want it to be.

well, after all cheers everyone gambate in exams! everyone~ including you, you :)

jazz is nice, n is part of my studyin song too thanz youzz!

2010-12-11T00:30:00.000+08:00

6 more days. mentally tired..wat accompanies me is just calls..
is there any physical form where i can approach?.
the sea perhaps?..

2010-12-09T00:54:00.000+08:00

do u ever wonder wats kills u inside n never kills u out?..
empathy..
n stayin at all course happy :)
from the inside out n outside out
settin a lose of sorrowness. never be found, never be feel,
the formula of happiness.
crying happy
grievin happy..
the emotion tat set fort the adrenaline to be happy.

wat shud we say - happy

2010-12-08T17:25:00.000+08:00

comin bak wasnt my option... and yes comin bak is the only option.
after vanishin from my very chiro for the last week.
things change, or u could everythings change,
im cured well cured indeed,
but 1 doubt left uncertainty,
and 1 is waitin to be,
5.23 i made a call, n the cell is almost dead...no idea if the call is return but is not..oh well..
it was a cozzy evenin(cold-zz)
here is me n the library itself,stayin at corner drinkin some beverage n handlin this post,
haha..

2010-12-05T01:45:00.000+08:00

when the soul is release from the seal,
the urn will not hold,
yet it seeks its path to truth,
n wats lies in front is thee.

sometimes theres doubts,
others ned affirmation,
a true grip,
that only reckons the precision

of eternity

the callers of soul never end, affirmation n sincerity only last

ab....c~

the

2010-11-28T17:17:00.001+08:00

the pusher, the one tat set forth to gush out my entire weakness of heart,
to feel n express the pain n sorrow of all time,
into a single very moment, hard..n inevitable craze.
honesty, tats wat i admired from you,
n thank you, again..
a reali honest answer.

the accompanist when i was down,
during tat very nite
thank you, deep gratitude from my heart,
given a statement between us, yet it is still there,
action has proven, but denial broke the trust
a verse once say, rather be happy-simple, or ignorance- man's rules,
i have imply the path, onli the path to be is lead by you.. or not.

the importaners,
i could barely describe in my heart or my mind,
i dono,
whether the classification is still appropriate to you n you n...
me..
barging into every means to mend it.
the presence just proven - fruitless
time heals everythin, BUT
it never repair..
moreover the balance between both sides never the same- never once,
Libra just crumble.

Purple is mystery...
mystery within the air..
mysteriously...

2010-11-25T07:57:00.000+08:00

I just wanna fuck off to penang n never step bak here again!!

boomed

2010-11-22T08:18:00.000+08:00

Life...is comin to an end

5 more weeks or less

n tats the end of my 2nd part in uni

aint tat cool?

i wish so.

hah....hahaha..

2010-11-01T08:06:00.000+08:00

u lonely, u find pply
u r very lonely, u find the closy pal u ever got
but when closy has been taken, n pply r just an imitation of joy for tat moment,
u find more pply, pply, pply
but all and all btw u n pply, its emptiness feeling
never real, never a real smile
cause theres nonthin btw pply n u
as intimate as closy.
n gettin closer to pply n bein taken away Again
after all...ur all alone..

2010-11-01T07:51:00.000+08:00

all along its the doppelganger livin here
this aint me, this aint reali me
i wanna go home..

2010-10-27T00:04:00.000+08:00

im happy seein things gettin along well,
not me,
but ppl around me,
hah im already a loner-sooner,
a sense of happiness seein ppl getting along well,
im happy cause of others
aint me again,
hah..
haha..

A click.

2010-10-25T07:23:00.001+08:00

randomly i pass through a site,
the site that shudnt be right..for me,
call it a coincidence,
or its appear to me at this very moment,
honestly a gush of sorrow just lingerin around thee heart,
at tat very moment,
indeed im still not emotionless enough,

I have to be, I have to BE..
enough is enough
damn...

PS. study is more important than anythin else, promise yrself to emotionless no matter wat circumstances. shit y m i strugglin, i shud move on/ or i already moved on. Stay calm.

im losin my mind because a friend,hah..pttff...

2010-10-15T08:56:00.000+08:00

emptiness within my soul,

who listens, who noes,

i lost my faith in everythin,

n believin everythin,

that strives me to be a loner,

n a nitewalker for my work,

i ignorin every lingerin pain,

just to stay alive,

but the price i paid,

is never better.

"I know pain, u think u can handle it and then one day u can't, when tat happen, you either find reasons to go on, or you don't" - House

I'm indeed all out of reasons.

2010-10-09T01:34:00.002+08:00

bein selfless to the point of self- denial?

2010-10-04T00:31:00.000+08:00

theres another sense of perspective of life,
and i guess i have to move on,
just wana appreciate sam still upholding the promise we made,
n well reali a sorry i should say it seems like things doesnt come together as it seems,
maybe it will, but i never noe when,
the friend who appreciates another friend will always treassure their good deeds,
rather den hold torment against their bad ones,
i guess its most likey horror n hatred goin through yrs..

i just shuffle through my handphone, and im touched n appreciative with every single message that i hve gone through...
n ill just wait...
but ill move on..
cause its just another care
from a different way of life

2010-10-02T01:26:00.000+08:00

it reminded me of something, i guess onli we noe,
its a great birthday, its a memorable one,
but the puzzle is not complete, i guess.

An incomplete birthday is present within my sight,
nonthin will seems to make it right,
an incomplete wish is chain by might,
i just hope it will be come right,

nevertheless,

ill always wish a happy luck to both of u,
cause thats the way i live for life.
stay happy, alright?
tats all i wanted
from both of u.

& hereby thank you angel & leader.

2010-09-29T08:04:00.000+08:00

dreaded by the whole week, or even nearly a month,
i had it, i reali had it, and i hate it,
isit things have to go to the max?
its reali getting overboard and im sick of myself.

im partially dead,
but u guys mustnt care!.
cause all along its just me

just for both of u..

2010-09-09T09:56:00.000+08:00

3 happy friends once live together,

1's a leader, another's a angel, well the 3rd one just a mortal,

The leader always leads the way,

courage, strength n confidence is the quality he possess,

The angel, humming her melodic voice along,

bringing peace, kind and care between them,

The mortal, is a kid

possess the naiveness n the feelings of mankind,

it was then..

the bond between them is so stronger,

but the mortal ruin it with the feelings of love,

the ignorance, the coolness, its nearly the end of the world,

the melancholic song sang by angel,

her grief n heartbreak sighting both sides r coming to an end,

in the end the mortal make a pack with the angel,

sparing his closeness n friendship to the angel for the life of the leader,

things turns well between them, but never the fallen mortal...

his loneliness, his grief, merely unspoken by words,

he has no where to linger except isolation from the world,

he learns to be independent, learns to meet other mortals,

But it is still hurts

Cause  the feeling of mankind still exist

no mortals he can mourn to.

except the blog he possesses

Regards to leader n angel, live happy alright?

recorded.simple.

2010-07-18T00:18:00.001+08:00

guess wa?t its bon-odori today

n basically its japanese festive seasson

n also its a day i never regret my choice of silence

if u would say im willing to let go

im willing to seal up everything n never let it happen again

call me dumbo or loser

im willingly givin up

seeing both ends tat never meet

n a chance tat sum1 is out there, sumwhere

or even the slightest nearest person

u ever get

startin to understand n get to the end

im willingly givin up

because..ur the one....

n yr r the two..

n theres never,,..

THEE

small

2010-07-14T23:03:00.000+08:00

i can say now..as it seems i am still small

especially taking care of situation.

i thought comin to kl givin me an opportunity to learn more n be better,

however, after 6 months of independence, i m really still small,

small in behaviour, in mind, not to mention my look..

i still cant differentiate the meaning of every action, was it just a coincidence, or merely a thought,

i wonder...but wonder not longer,

cause im tired of askin answers tat doesnt determine anything,

or showin me the opposite,

trust me..im done..

the small boy still ned some spanking...a hard one too...

no point guessin when u noe its never a fact..

its a

SMALL

~~SMALL~~

Boy..Me

Peace

wrong

2010-06-25T00:25:00.002+08:00

i always get the wrong choices,

no matter how hard it can be..pek! wrong

is the choice in life so limited

either u or me..

left or right

n theres no other?

the signs r signs u meant or just an illusion

an illusion tat crafted - so tats u to everyone

wat i seek for

just only signs of a happening

it is true or false

~~~~~~~~~

Craved n dismay

2nd day of study break

2010-06-19T03:28:00.000+08:00

i noe wats my aim now...strive for the best in my chiro

if the most sealin of anythin possible just to concentrate in study..

tats wat i aim for...my 2 weeks..my 2 weeks..pfftt

sorry for the change in in mood...i have to live up.

well...

2010-06-17T08:59:00.001+08:00

hey, im getting my class test results!!!

hey, im the second guy who went in,

But hey...its horrible...

Imagine putting alot of effort n everythin turns out mud...

n its not once but twice maintainin the aspect tat is required..

one word 'devastated'

I kept refreshin my mind wat happen to it?

which part did i mess up??

everythin is but a blank page.....

im reali eager to noe wat happen actually...is it i didnt study much??or basically a simple explanation - retard...pttf

i guess my life is just bout to end in the Bermuda Triangle

i wish sum1 could hug me now...hugs* air

i basically - suck...

THe Mission of the Day?

2010-06-13T19:26:00.000+08:00

Sunday morning...alright typical sunday morning ppl will go church, ppl will sleep late, ppl will have family day...ahh etc..etc..

but for us sunday is study day..or even worst to be heard tues is our JUDGEMENT DAY!

2 subjects on the cove to be - Stats and ENg

basically its like snowy hell cold durin the day but now dead heat after 6..yup trust me...HOT

and the discussion no long a study area..still u can call a study area...

with piles of papers and partially unwaanted bottle lying on the table.

and three dead bodies lying around the table..(me is 1 of them) on top on the table of course.

BUT hey wait..3 are awake now...and the other 3 r meditating in another room..yup medatatin from here..

but in fact discussion n gossippin stuff..

right just describe my last 30mins in a room..with paper n dugbss...

Exams reali kill the everyone..even killin the time we can meet

well...exam is reali killin but vitally important

sem 2..

2010-06-09T07:56:00.000+08:00

Aammm...well spendin a time or 2 craftin sumthin out from sum senseless head may be gud..

requested by my very own pal yi kai* see i blogged!..ptff just a few minutes..

sarcastically i dutyin in the clinic around 8.45...

so wad's up with the 7.45 wake up thingy...err i would say ~~SLEEPY~~

sleepy head~ woo* talkin crap now

gosh many things have happen n well i just briefly stated out stuff..

cause im late for Bathing ~my so called pom pom time

survivin 4 months of *agony(typical milder agony) i would say bitter sweet memories

from a loner in imu in kl to a multi-related family person n fracko-peeps with my mates

an accomplishment that im still* aint satisfied...independent

overall i guess im not ready for life yet, a simple affiliation nor a permission to care..

life, is a serious business n im takin granted from it..

well..stop n stare :D

so i blog bak....WAT?? :D

2010-05-18T23:35:00.000+08:00

pufft...i blog bak for a day...haha grazing n "wowing' the new environment im in..my pal's home..

still....staringh at the all lost connection media - television!!!!! yup broadcasting 'desperate housewife'

BOoyaa...just ended my class exam last week n well i do really feel awesome it ENDED n hump...i do really miss penang. DOno why, if i would be for the past few weeks, i would say no...but alright...alright i do miss....NOW!!!

Oh yea!!! sales is everywhere in KL now...from Padini to G2000 to Levis..etc..etc everything is on 50% maybe the least 20%? yea...topshop is really not a bad place to shop!! the gourments r unique i guess..super thin man!!

the one trip i never miss during penang...so yeah!!! shop, shop, shop!!!!!

the next item on my list>>> mask@@where? my face...eversince after my exams..ache just budged up from nowhere...to everywhere..sometimes i do disclaim this is my FACE!!!T.T

hmm...lastly, wondering hows everyone there..especially the one tat left to melb since her birthday. n those who ran off to aussie just for the sake of studyin!!! yea n the ones who still rotting at inti 'busying' everytime i got bak...ahem*

booya

2010-04-28T08:43:00.000+08:00

it has been almost a month being in kl and things just getting hectic n more well...enthu haha

Praise the professors!! or u may say praise the course...dont u just like ANATOMY???

Hmm...well its gonna be super hectic, like everyone else assignments, assignments, exams, exams,

BUt hey, this cant stop me... i hve been to MOS, been through SkyBar,..yup tat shud be my life...hehe

Still study is a SO SO MUST thingy cause its just my 1st sem!!

gah..the anxiety from both side just making a crap out of me...theres still lots of places to explore though...

oh yea...someone took away my pohtograph post - from being a spammer in facebook, being malaysian no1 lady gaga to the super enthu photographer. Imagine she can even tke pic during class n gets the horrible potrait out from everyone of US.

U could see tat in my photoes r horrible!!! i mean it T.T but ur still the gaga, pal :D

crag david - you dont miss the water

2010-04-16T22:49:00.000+08:00

fantastic song...well its just me a hint tat i dont even noe wat to do...

hahaha once again i lost my sense of writtin sumthin out of sumthin...

maybe i spill out everythin in da daily conversation n its just well..'empty' to blather out sumthin..
hmm..well its week 7 : D manage to pass peacefully n enjoy every single moment...
no emoes....no sadnes or watsoever..its been FUN!!! maybe a slightess possability maybe now?

but in da brain freeze process its just awhile..oh yeah maybe IM bored too tats y...
opps..didnt imagine i said tat...

gah whu cares~~ next friday!!!!!class test!!!!!right...

I cant control any longer,

its time to unlease?

hmmmmmmmmmmmm.................................................

hey mate, time flies

2010-04-07T23:19:00.000+08:00

hey coming bak my blog gve me a feeling is urrmm...should i write?

duhh..im lazy to express wat more getting myself typing all the way through here???

fine..a little cocern of me being here - KL yup its SOOOO KL here.

People? super varieties, place? its a total maze!, so food...urm low graded?? gah PENANG punya still the

BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so the generalise question how m I? i could say awsome, ginky n well...MADNESS

apart from studies yeeda..yeeda..yeeda... everything just looks cool,

u get the seniors, u get your close orientation clicks, u geda triple' Es loving batchmates, not to mention the funkiest ever big small kiddy lect bein by your side

Summary: indulgence

a side note:

my whole life bein the third point of view had finally understand - its just hard to be homosapiens...

its like a total dejavuu n i thing u cant never understand is still ~~affiliation~~

flapping your wings around n stuck at the bottom of abyss n u get a new pair n pairless again..

so...tats life

BUT mercifully theres the invention of aerocraft, u just gotta sit bak n wonder around the world

i would say 'move on, mate' n the plane starts, oh yea~

in any way u get to bang another plane? maybe?maybe not who noes..stay clam n let the mind take you to yr next destination.

cuti-cuti malaysia~

give in

2010-02-20T23:49:00.001+08:00

let say is my last day in penang n the worst decission i make..

intended to leave today, n sumhow it extended to sun...

so is it worth it? i guess we know the answer.

eversince got bak from K.L since the past few weeks, wat my plans r to do the best n plan the best for the days left for those who r important to me - family, peers, well maybe my bedroom as well? haha..
i noe i did a big mistake becoming cold, but i try my best to entertain whoever n whenever there r....hoping tat it reali reali makes wats me left in penang, but the results shown is a failure..

im not emoing or sad, just the disappointment to myself tat i can do better, or maybe more revolting than wat i plan. Time doesnt turn back right? i noe..n if its happens so..its never be the same.

actions, if u limited them, izzit still actions?

chats, if u controlling wat n wat not to speak out, izzit still wat u intended to say?

avoidance, tat appear common n wats actually in your mind?

its all the signs tat we have lost the trust...

or moving on..

acknowledging tat it has happen, i guess its time to follow the tempo tat is planned, its time to let go..

suppose to wish just now..well...Ki o tsukete

i reali miss the days we had..

tee....bak!

2010-02-18T22:32:00.002+08:00

so..i was secluded by the net for 4 days ever since i went bak to my hometown, ipoh.. urghh..fucking hot the weather n basically the first i walk into the house ...fuuuyooo, so hot ar -.- n plz the wind is humid hot, just like u went into a spa n we are basically just moments away from being 'cooked' alive! the day is just sweating, sweating n sweating...BUT the nite hahahaha well..we could say we having a miny gamble group..although its not a big event but u get to test yr luck on tat shud be interesting...haha village life..tats the best part of it.

gathering was an awsome plan or this week n its sing may birthday too >< haha..i board on an 8.45bus n manage to reach back penang by 11+ n the first thing i got home is AHHHHHHHHHHHH~ u can feel the diffrence actually n is so damn good. so i had a quick bath n even try on my contacts...well another fail again-.- i just cant get my left eye to go any bigger n tat just sucks man..anyway put on my white glasses n fuussh to little cottage. So, its reali a big scale of ppl who attended n its enjoyable basically..

shit..cant continue writting now..oh well more coverage later den...-.- im tired of last minute errands..

haha 3 bucks!

2010-02-16T21:44:00.000+08:00

so guess wat..im at ipoh right now!!!
so...how is it...so damn hot!! arrh theres no line either when ur staying in place call kampung haha...
n im spending 3 bucks just for an hour cyber cafe..ahhh anyway im comin by bus 2morrow!! so wait for me pals :)

so wish u guys huat ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! muahahha

gamble!!

2010-02-14T21:37:00.003+08:00

hah..first day of new year n valentino day brought up wat i call the 'gamble day' basically i harvested lots of angpau during the day n manage to mingle with my cousins n well...start gambling!!!!!!!! haha...1, 2,3,....8 to be the fact lolx..rm2 is the lowest till rm5.. so we have black jack, 3 cards...eerm sam ban luk? so its like going around gambling!!!

n guess wat for valentine? KFC at home! lolx..imagine tat..we reached the place n it was crowded...super crowded with people n mostly r couples too...LOLx n the line...is super long n i dropped my phone >< yikes..

n guess wat its my first time seeing a dual red-packet n valentine gift!! it is cute...seriously adorable... n the red packet is stuff with 50 bucks man!!!

new year

2010-02-14T06:26:00.002+08:00

theres a folk tales says tat the later u sleep during the first day of chinese new year, the longer your parents will live. haha yup, i spend my whole nite through into the wee hours of 4am.

a lot of stuff keep banging up my mind,especially this day, im projected towards the best of worst ofit all but i guess manage to be distracted with movies, good damn horror movies -they just kills my brain off.

my work is almost done here n no regrets on wat im doing now...so just let the game continue..

man, my cousin bro rocks yez especially for a 4 year old dude.

1st post durin the day

2010-02-13T10:07:00.002+08:00

yea gud morning!..yup a very gud day to my blogy..rarely see myself reading blogs in the morning..
i guess im bored...ha wei ning leaving today..there we go another has left...

yup, anyway gud morning :)

u never noe`

2010-02-12T23:45:00.002+08:00

hey i got bak to secondary schul today...yup the old CHLS..ahh i thing never changed thought...is the super hot temperature enviroment -.-
i tell u...its even worst den last time..evernthough trees n bushes are grown everywhere...but its still so DAMN hot. three of us cant even run away from the soarching heat n its like downpour sweat on our body. Man, n im going gurney later...wet n smelly -.- oh well...BUT BUT BUT its worth it u gotta see yr old buddies at schul...yea its like hi, hi, hi n hi haha..n the same converstaion continues...

oh i even got the pics but its kinda random n little oh well better den nonthin!!!!
hectic day i presumed ....alright pen-off now

recap`

2010-02-10T23:09:00.002+08:00

so heres basically the recap wats going on the people around me.

yez- mich left n bak to aussieland
today - carmen boarding the plane right now
2morrow - joyce embark her new journey to aussie
this sat - jacq too leaving to aussie
this sun -kenny going to sarawak

n the list goes on n on n on n on...ahh fucking fed up!!!!!!!

2 pals commented - we have to live through tat experience..i totally agree with tat n i hve doubt of leaving early too ( i feel lifelss whenever in penang currently)rightly n leftly, u hve two choices n my pal got a left fur me. LEFT, in another meaning means already gone...leaving so its an early date den..

BUT, libras r so indecisive, they always have the 'last minute breakthrough where wat they decide now turns out the opposite, we r chain to the so called surrounding effect where even the slightest decisions will totally changed their mind in a split second. ITs a no for today n a yes for 2morrow. I hate myself for tat attitude i have. i never get things right - almost anything tats 100% wat i want from the beginning. So its is worthdy to stay for tat extra days just for the sake of sumthin or its just bullshit enough to believe long lasting. I dono, i seriously dono wats the future...

the most important thing tat i noe is tat im gonna spend most of time left with my family n get ready for IMU(almost done). Yea, mum n dad i love both of u very much..

family priority is more supreb den anything in life

oh yea bon voyage joyce~

goodie..goodie...goodie

2010-02-08T19:29:00.002+08:00

i slacked for 3 days!!hahaa well there are reasons....
so lets start from friday.. i had registered the 3 days 2 nites camp in inti. So....how was it? fun but yet its killing me innerly as well.

tat friday i step in inti n our 1st first programme is team building. Ice break at the start n followed by separating all of us into two teams n it goes on with team games - ropes, fixing a minature dino, the guessin n act game, n theres tat run n catch game. Well, we were basically tested not only physical, mental but the co-operation of teammates as well. oh yea forgot to intro our beloved sir, Mr Edmund - in his 50s' but hes sure have a young heart n passion in frisbee. COMMITMENT tats wat he wans from us. so there was this talk on it n thing goes on till 1 n we get ourselves shower n ready for rest.

Sat, yup...7am we gotta be awake n hve our breakfast. i bet i had just a 5 hour rest(which aint enough for me) n we get down the tennis court to do some drills. woot everything when well n we had a game in evenings. HUAT ar - tats basically our team cheer-out call, a team of 7 n everyone is skilled except me - the newbie who went for frisbee the second time in his life.......hey, at least i gotta join in n start off by being a defender n followin yong fu 24-7 as a marker(frisbee term). Yup the fun just never end till we call it a day around 8 n gree time for us.

Sun, yeeda...yeeda...yeeda same stuff but i left early around 12 n meet up with mich. Ha, the birthday gal....she keep sigh, sigh n sigh since wed as most of us cant attend her plans. well we changed to sun. start off with RedBox, n theres the dancing machine n pool seassion in gurney. I finally hit in 1 ball!!!!!!! im seriously suck at pooling n tat was lucky i guess just before jonathan finish off the 8th ball. yup the day ends off by hving a mini birthday party with her family at home n i gotta taste tat lovely peach cheese cake ( yum..yum ><) too bad its already near midnite n i just ate a piece. wont wan me to add a layer of fat in my body do i...XD

oh boy my four limbs r still aching....man tat frisbee sure drains lots of my energy out...its even more harder than tennis i bet.ha anyway i benifit alot n well the least i make up....yea....

gotta get my bath now..haha oya~

turn on the lights!

2010-02-04T23:17:00.007+08:00

man..another power failure again.N the most frustrated thing ever happen is it happen twice in a day... the afternoon(3pm) was alright as everywhere is bright n windy...tats was like 30minutes of no electricity? damn..n the other one which happens minutes ago...can u imagine it was so freaking hot for 2 hours yup..2hours~ 8pm to 10p++pm i was mousehunt halfway n the lights just poof~ haha the funny part is tat u gotta hear my maid n my sister was 'ehh, ehh, ehh outside the living room' lolx...guess wat..my sister is afraid of the dark - suppose since small i scared her too much in the dark..hiek hiek hiek....okay okay, i know i am mean but she deserved this tiny punishment for being so barbarian towards me. don't get decieved by look, shes look gentle but once the mouth open, u will regret it..hahaha damn scary her attitude-.-

tat 2hours, ha boring...boring..boring...n lapie didnt survive for tat 2hours..in fact it went off an hour after which left me with my ipod...

so here the proofs XD

see tat big bottle...its my medicine of my tummy...

see how hardworking imXD u wont wonder noe wat i was doing...a hint - comes with 46 different characters..

there we go..the god damn only light source we had for 2 hours T.T (exclude the torche)

ahh...childhood stuff..i still dont get it ( wat the heck m i doing??) lolx...just being creative i guess..

so how is my condition? bad...real bad especially the tummy still isnt the way as it suppose to be. it urged for food never ends till i kun!!! see..now its grumbling again-.- when will it ever stop....haiz

n once again u gotta hear try by Asher Book cause its reali awsome><
miss it? aww..its just below this post....its reali reali reali reali reali god damn super holiao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!haha

Fame

2010-02-03T20:51:00.003+08:00

it looks teenager to me at first..u noe those typical high school musical where they sing sing dance dance like every spot they can find n in the end everything was focus on music n dance even there like nno plot..

BUT this is different!!! eventhough theres dancing n stuff wat i realy enjoy is how they imply the songs to us, u reali feel like from the 1st day of campus, followed by knowing new ppl, to joy n laughter n even hardship(reali awful hard) till u graduated from the campus..tats wat ordinary ppl hve to live through but they r more enjoyable!!!!man..i feel like going for arts now..

n wat i dont believe theres even a scene where ppl commit suicide. yikes..but was saved of course hiuh...

Im..seriously...m touched by 2 great damn songs...

Someone to Watch Over Me" - Asher Book

&

Try - Asher Book

well...alright im more bias towards 'Try' god dammit, its really meaningful
now i noe why mich was mesmorised by him too..haha who won't??

great time spending with my 3 buds.

If i walk, would you run?
If i stop, would you come?
If i say you're the one, would you believe me?
If i ask you to stay, would you show me the way?
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me.
The world is catching up to you
While you're running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus
But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If i sing you a song, would you sing along?
Or wait till i'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If i give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful.
Am i catching up to you?
While your running away to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus
But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

If i walk would you run
If i stop would you come
If i say you're the one would you believe me

power failure!

2010-02-02T20:43:00.003+08:00

god dammit..yez i was quite pissed tat i cant log in the internet. I restart my lappie n the modem nemourous times until i got fed-up n called the streamxy company. Ha, i gve dem my details n stuff n just keep asking wats the faulty with my connection. Guess wat every question i asked twice he gave me the same ans. I mean, Come on ppl ask u again cause they r not satisfied with yr ans. N believe me i sterned up the voice n asked..'ehh, i am askin..' celaka -.-

BUT all in all in the end it was the powerhouse supply tat got burned down on far away from our area, causing the connection to temporarily disconnected. Uh-huh, i guess our lane r the lucky ones who still got tat lights turn on n the other side i mean the whole lot n even the street's lights r gone! well, i pity for the operator who recieve my call n kena belasah innocently hahaha...i hope he still wanna continue his work..cause from wat i hear it seems he's a newbie in tat directory...aww..gomene

well, the connection is bak on track in fact about 10 but i was soo...lazy of goin on9 (except my mousehunt)..haha did i miss anythin?

anyway...yeap songs again..in fact 1 found one gud one..but tats gonna save for the last cause it taotally sings out..well basically everything..woot anyway enjoy THIS XD

cant believe shes goin for RnB...well it still sounds cool with her style gua.. but still the funky type still suit her better..

till my last shed of sweat..

2010-01-31T21:46:00.002+08:00

god dammit..i hve killing mosquitoes since 8 n now is 9pm. I guess this is the sign of too free..While waiting for my mousehunt to work itself throughout the game, i splat every single blood-sucker i see. i even grab n squeeze my fist so damn hard n guess wat? 1 manage to fly out!!!!celaka..n finally i stop now..n theres still like 3 roaming around the area..(fine..another day to live alright? u will get it soon!)

yup..my mum went down kl again..n there goes another week carless...ptf i noe its feb..i get it ..still lots of things i hvent done yet. n guess wat i learn this morning...horoscope sumthin tells the truth. lolx, in fact was influence by my pal, thie very morning was too free n suddenly pop out a question from my pal..

' wats yr horoscope?'

n there we go..she got up 1 website which spells out quite true..almost* everything suit the condition i am..-.- n i was forced to agree..LOLx is like everytime 1 demeanour appears, shes like 'HA, there we go..' the whole morning was truely horoscope n horoscope.. haha cant stop smillin stupidly my first thing online..horoscope! -.-

http://www.iloveindia.com/astrology/sun-signs/index.html

there we go...haha iloveindia...( dont laugh..the inventory inside will amaze you, trust me :) shes one of the hack awsome horoscopelist..

not sleepy day

2010-01-30T21:03:00.002+08:00

i stop my pills..totally except for my gaviscon( a white liquid tats in a bottle) it gives a burning sensation as it flow down into your throat. i bet tats enough to cure my gassy feeling... ha aint a sleepy day anymore but a hectic one indeed. Appearingly im hving problem with the finiancial for my uni. yikes applying the PTPN loan was one of a heck stupidous thing to do..

as i was browsing through the institution given the loan n i cant find IMU at all..i search like more den 5 n guess wat? its called Institute Perubatan Antarabangsa... wth!!! even HELP, Monash, Nottingham n Aimist all in English spelled n wth ur putting IMU in malay...hah tat took me 30mins to solve everything n pass up my form..

now song time...haha 再一次拥有 by 龚诗嘉
its part of the movie in the last last time movie if u remember i think around form 3?
ha! o hve lost touch of it till now it reappears in my mind..

enjoy!

i hate pills..

2010-01-29T21:33:00.002+08:00

its getting better now..i mean my gastric but aint my everyday life schedule. The pills although cures away the gassy feeling n prevents hungryness, it actually makes u feel tired n sleepy as well. wat i noe is i hve been sleepin from 1? to around 8 this very morning. And now how u suppose me to sleep now...maybe i will n its soon cause i just had the pill....wat happen to my everyday owl nite life? I want to stay up late!! cause theres basically much to do rather den lying dead on my bed. just hate it..

Yawn* there we go again-.- gastric pills..HUH basically stupid...
im confuse n bored..,maybe i could dream sumthin out..tats wat i hope in my condition.

as usual goodnite my pals.

frisbee~skate

2010-01-28T22:58:00.004+08:00

its another tiring outing again...n the worst part..my tummy bloated signifying the gastric is back again..yikes still i wont betray the plans i made..

so its 2pm n went for our skating session in queensbay. tat went well n fall on my bumps once, but tat hurts alot along with a small cut at my leg near the foot..didnt notice till i got home. They increase the price in fact to 16 bucks/per but its quite worth it as there was no 1 at the ring(maybe 1 or 2) n its one of the hell to get me through from babysteps to finally skate a lil faster in the ring..in fact seumas is so pro at this!!!

after hvin lunchi at MacD, we went up my ex-college to go for frisbee. dont underestimate this little sport disk, it may seems harmless, but after being hit by it, it is as painful as being 'tiak' by people.alright its not reali tat painful, still after getting multiple hits by it will be a different story, just like my case...stil its simple n nice

n i finally understand wats the rules r in the game n i didnt noe theres connection frisbee with bussiness n company till now O.o. teamwork n analysing teammates is held as the basic skill in frisbee. So its no doubt, much to learn as it seems from this tiny little sport game.

N heres the joke, i went bak home hving dinner with mum n check out the conversation

Mum: where hve u been?
Me : well, basically skatting n frisbee
Mum: tell me y u hvent eat? got gastric liao summore like tat..
Me: Aiyo, its excercise alright?
Mum: what's frisbee?
Me: use plates to throw..if the plates break, counted as lose..
Mum: Huh? yr inti so rich r? ppl can sponsor so many plates to throw?
Me: ya we can also use our plates too u noe?

got the joke? -.- pratically im speechless..

hears a song to intro quite old but its a good choice

<<<<< True - Ryan Cabrera ( can hear it from my ipod)

alright...time to turns the lights off...oya my pals :)

last minute

2010-01-28T00:27:00.003+08:00

ayaa....i reali hate last minute planning..n the most irritable its almost 11pm??
if its not the sake for u guys...i would reply 'fai si choi lei' lolx
serious..late plannin the result will turn reali reali bad eventually..been through tat, felt through tat..

my mind still stuck between queenbay n gurney? if gurney no doubt im bored of there, still i might have i chance to enjoy in winter warmers..n if queensbay, its totally a yesh cause i hvent been there since the end of our college final exam? tats soooo long...still..hve to make a quick decission...n faster reply!!!!

Universal of soldier!!!!

time still continues, things r turning cold,
seriously, i dono if theres still a chance to stop ehm...
or should the flow continue its way..

rest day :' )

2010-01-26T22:28:00.004+08:00

after 3 days of entertainment n 3days of non-stop money usage... Yup its tues n a day to rest off.

say...it isnt boring at home today...basically gone through books n music cheek n everything had occupied most of day. I even browse through the net for JOB! yup..theres tonnes n tonnes of them but the most shitdest thing is...requirement : female...
no matter freelance, or promoter, or sales they onli accept female! the same case just happen when im asking room for rent at bukit jalil there.. 'Nop, only females..' -.-
so now the ladies have more advantage den man? ...

now heres another lovely song..

Wedding dress - BigBang (Tae Song)

hearing this 24hrs n learnin the dance moves..wish me luck for the next redbox haha ><

winter warmers

2010-01-25T21:47:00.004+08:00

4 times i have been since the last count during july..
everytime is with different ppl sharing different stories of their own ( including food n beverages too XD)

it start off with rose milk tea for my first trip in tat tea house..n its pleasant while waiting for a movie

2nd trip was oct if not mistaken..ordered more than before..sandwiches n again rose milk tea...theres crackers with tuna too but a failure to summon out the waffle as the machine broke down..3 people sharing 3 stories of its own n a labtop as well

3rd trip i ordered the wrong one..n it happen yez should be milk tea* instead it came out tea...bluemoon n rose tea...its plain like water still meeting up old pal just well..just not a subject to talk for...

yup..my 4th trip today n i didnt ordered wrongly...blueberry milk* tea n waffles..theres even rose n peach milk* tea for my pals :) a new meet out i guess...but it all went well..a success i guess..phew..

eventhough people come and go, they will still leave patches of memories every passing moment...i m just wanna give my gratitude to the first person for introducing winter warmers..thank you :)

2010-01-23T00:55:00.002+08:00

got myself into 3 horror movie -

ju-on( the one in cinema)
TOdy Dep,the crazy baber sumthin
fate

ju-on was lame-ass horror movie...just watch in pps will do...super lame.. imagine u can laugh whenshes doing the killing -.-

the other 2 was awsome, not bloodish, not terrified, but well just up to the mark as a horror movie..

going for another 1 later..oh well

Can We Go Back by 倖田來未 Koda Kumi

2010-01-22T01:16:00.002+08:00

burnin sensation in my eye...yup cause by sleepless nite..

BUT at least i got a great song

Can We Go Back by 倖田來未 Koda Kumi

2010-01-20T12:20:00.004+08:00

deleted tat arse lame post..
cause IT is a lame post..just get on and see the light
be yrself tats wat is call..
-.- no doubt agreeable teachin ppl to be but aint myself..
still a listener i will be...
just happy to help XD

just another rule to imply( never get influence :/)
now i believe how hard to be a part of physcology -.-

Jay Sean - Lights Off

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired
It's you that I'm missing
It's like my brain is wired up
And there's a glitch in my system
You're like a drug and now my blood won't stop itching
I'm in critical condition
Someone let me out of this prison
It's like my mind is playing tricks on me lately
I could of sworn that you are still my baby
I'm on a merry-go-round
Going around, driving me crazy

That's why it feels like
Losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
Won't somebody, anybody
Please just turn the lights on
I won't take one step
I can't see what's coming next
Losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
Can't see at all (at all, at all, at all)
Can't see at all (no, oh no)
Can't see at all (at all)
Cause it's like somebody just turned all the lights off

I don't understand how one minute I just had it all
Now I can't reach you cos I'm tied up with this straight jacket on
I can't breathe (breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe, breathe)
I can't see (see, see, see, see, see, see, see)
It's like my mind is playing tricks on me lately
I could of sworn that you are still my baby
I'm on a merry-go-round
Going around, driving me crazy

That's why it feels like
Losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
Won't somebody, anybody
Please just turn the lights on
I won't take one step
I can't see what's coming next
Losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
Can't see at all (at all, at all, at all)
Can't see at all (no, oh no)
Can't see at all (at all)
Cause it's like somebody just turned all the lights off

Used to see my world in color girl
When you left me it's like my world turned gray
Turn my winter into summer girl
Why won't you help me turn night to day
I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't think at all
Honestly it feels like I ain't living no more
Can't say no more, can't see no more

Baby that's why it feels like
Losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
Won't somebody, anybody
Please just turn the lights on
I won't take one step
I can't see what's coming next
Losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off
Can't see at all (at all, at all, at all)
Can't see at all (no, oh no)
Can't see at all (at all)
Cause it's like somebody just turned all the lights off

tragic

2010-01-18T01:40:00.002+08:00

no1 can predict wat happens next and when,
all and all i guess life tat matters...and personnaly i guess the ones beside u r meant to be treassure,
once u lose it, u can never embrace it,
time just jarpodise things, it happens when it meant to be, but it kills away too things tat rnt to be mingle with..
sumthin its pleassure, sumthimes its shed,
wat mingles thee,
is to set free
when the time is right

another random thought~

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